Nov 18, 2006
I have a real attitude tonight. I'm really not in a good frame of mind. Aaaaah yes, pain has a way of doing that to the innocent and guilty alike. I'd starting taking pain meds again. Big mistake, huge fucking mistake. I can't stand to be enslaved to anything, not a man, woman, drug, anything. Of course all Doctors are scared stiff to give you anything and I guess you're supposed to live with it. How can you live with it? What to do when you are in real pain and you're tired of sucking it up??? I can see why people blow their heads off. Yes, those familiar headaches, those ugly fucking, life changing headaches. Pain riddles your body, wrecking your life and killing any emotion of joy you might have left. If I could spar with my pain, I'd kick it's fucking ass. I'd tell it what a piece of shit, worthless motherfucker it is and spit in it's face. I'd rip it's throat out and shit down it's lungs. I'd rip it's arm off and beat the shit out of it with it's own bloody stump. I'd shoot it right between the eyes, when I was done kicking it in the face, and have no remorse, none. I'd piss on it and tell it to fuck off and watch it as it slowly dies, that glimmer leaving it's eyes. Yes, kiss my fat ass Mr.Pain, you fuckin' fuck!